Letting Go

I have to say that in many ways, 2008 was a banner bad year for me. I lost several people that I love very much, almost lost my father and had many other personal issues land on my head. I know this is life and I usually take it quite philosophically, but this last year just seemed too unreal to be true.

Among the many things I lost this year, I gained a large amount of weight that I had recently taken off. My high was 231 and I got down to under 200 for the first time since 2006. I am now back over 200, however and am sick of it.

My cousin and I have made a pact and she is very motivated, which helps me. I hope in turn to be an encouragement to her.

I have always struggeld with my weight and I have come to believe my issue is largely due to food becoming my coping mechanism. However, as this last year proved, I need a different way of coping or I am going to kill myself with ill health.

So here's to letting go. Finding a new way to a healthier me.